His website uses
the phrase ‘fair-is-fair’, but he has concentrated solely on negativity,
never attempting to gain a fair picture of who I really
am.
”Sanjay Dadlani, made personal
attacks and erroneous allegations against me without even making a
single inquiry or doing the most basic of research.” http://www.saisathyasai.com/baba/emails-sanjay-dadlani.html
Is it not
cowardly and inconsistent that Mr. Morèno wishes for a courtesy that he
also does not extend to Glen Meloy, Sanjay Dadlani, Barry Pittard, and
other former devotees? For all his protestations of fairness, he goes on
the offensive - as his daily shower of releases on his website shows.
Instead of saying, simply, “I should have asked you, sorry.”
(Morèno gives a link) …Glen
Meloy's famous lie that SSB's "inappropriate sexual behavior
confirmed by US officialdom", when in fact, the US Dept. of State said
that the reports were "unconfirmed".
Perhaps doing the
work of several researches, Mr. Morèno is getting too brain-fatigued to
read with basic concentration. The gist of the information about the
State Department (quite widely disseminated on the Internet) is that, in
May 2004, the BBC contacted its officials and confirmed that it now
names Sathya Sai Baba as the subject of its concern, whereas its earlier
Advisory did not name him. The information gives the name and two
numbers (one for the media, one for the public, by which this
information can be confirmed.
Like Bon
Giovanni, Mr. Morèno claims that he is not a Sai Baba devotee yet puts
vast daily effort in writing against those who question this guru.
Gèrald Morèno is hard to trust, yet he thinks that the Sai Baba sexual
molestation survivors should send their affidavits to him.
Failure to expose
Sai Baba as a child molester, among other terrible failings, is a
dereliction of good community morals and ethics. If he will
consult his conscience, Mr. Morèno must know this. But he has not raised
his voice in protest. Rather, via other website activity, he exalts Sai
Baba, and goes to great effort to provide fine photos of him and his
surroundings.
Approaching many
governments, national police forces, institutions, leaders in various
religions and other belief systems, many former devotees have made
tremendous sacrifices of time and energy, driven by conscience, to bring
about independent investigations of Sai Baba and his leadership, but are
dishonestly dismissed by pro Sai Baba activists as being disgruntled,
liars, motivated by hatred, etc.
Despite what Mr.
Morèno and other antagonists have said, there are many former devotees
from many countries, and their integrity was not in question when they
were devotees, and they stand high in their own communities, workplaces,
and so on. Mr. Morèno and other pro Sai activists slander many wonderful
people, one after the other.
My opinion regarding Said Khorramshahgol’s mental state is my
own personal opinion. I never claimed it was a diagnosis. Is Said
Khorramshahgol a psychiatrist or a psychologist who can diagnose sexual
disorders? He gives his own opinions regarding SSB’s sexual disorders.
In common with so
many others down the years, I was sexually molested by Sai Baba. He made
sexual noises while playing with my penis and yet Mr. Morèno says that I
am giving my own “opinions” of Sai Baba’s “sexual disorders.”
Professional abuse professionals have told us that no therapy succeeds
that does not regard the sexually abused client as experts, in our own
way.
I am not
diagnosing Sai Baba’s sexual disorder. I assert that he is not who he
says he is. Mr. Morèno says that he wishes to acquaint the
“general public with both sides of the story”. But virtually every
day, the welter of words almost daily flooding onto his site suggests
one overwhelming agenda: to deflect attention away from the
worldwide accusations against Sai Baba. Strangely, Mr. Morèno
believes that Sai Baba “has engaged in sexual acts with young men”. So
when will Mr. Morèno direct his efforts to demand accountability from
Sai Baba and his officials?
A link to my Internet account of how
I felt guilty about not being able to live up to Sai Baba’s teachings
proves nothing, but to Mr. Morèno it means that I am crazy for feeling
guilty and letting guilt push me towards depression and paranoia.
Considering the immensity and age-old, continuing, widespread nature of
the allegations, he grasps at straws.
He provides a
link to an MSN group called SaiBabaMaestroeAvatar where I supposedly
spammed over 1,200 times, but when you go to that group, you will not
find any posts from me, let alone 1,200 of them. He provides a
link to a Yahoo group where I have been active off and on, saying that I
have posted a lot of messages there. But what are such groups for?
Again, this link proves nothing. Mr. Morèno’s last link was to some
posts that were supposed to be from me. But the person posting
under my name was not me, as Mr. Morèno is now forced to agree.
Likewise, this last link proves nothing.
These things show
that Said had "many problems" prior to coming to SSB. This is just
a statement of fact, backed up by Afshin Khorramshahgol’s own
words.
As I said in my account of sexual abuse at the hands of Sai
Baba, I felt very guilty for failing to follow ALL of the teachings of
Sai Baba and as a result the guilt made me depressed over time. Mr.
Morèno and other devotees make the point that this is an "evidence" that
"proves" that I have mental problems. What does my state of mind before,
during, and after seeing Sai Baba prove? That I was not sexually
abused?
What is Mr.
Morèno’s agenda? Does not he recall the troubles of puberty and
adolescence? In any case, does being “very confused” say everything
about a person’s state of being? About his sense of purpose to
existence? Does being “unhappy” or in “mental torment” or even
“desperate” (my words) constitute mental illness?
Even if Gèrald
Morèno thinks that others run a negative smear campaign, is it right for
him to conduct his own?
I said that, in my
opinion, Said Khorramshagol had "acute mental issues" due to his online
activity and behavior. I did not attribute his "acute mental
issues" to his many problems
Mr. Morèno is not
qualified to make any such conclusions and the fact that he insists on
pushing his unproven opinions on his web site shows that he has an
agenda to smear me. Is Morèno’s ‘fair’ really fair?
I quote from my
first response to him, one that he remains very silent about. In my
recent reply to him, I placed his attempts to discredit me in a
tradition seen not least in two of the most renowned Sai Baba
leaders:
“In case it is
thought that such shameful psychologizing is confined to rank and file
Sai devotees, let it be recalled that it has been used by top Sai
leaders such as Dr. Hislop when he refers to the testimony of a boy
devotee from Northern California as ‘teen anxiety and projection.’
(Memo, January 18, 1981, in possession of a former Sai leader Dr.
Timothy Conway, of Santa Barbara, USA.) Similarly, the Rahm family
relates how Dr. Michael Goldstein said that their son might be
‘delusional.’ Again, rather than provide, for example, an
independent, third party professional assessment, there is the attempt
to attribute mental symptoms.”
In any case, let
all those Sai devotees who attempt to pin the madness slur know that
even the mad are not exempt from being sexually abused!
If this ever went
to a court of law, it is certain that Said Afshin Khorramshahgol’s
online behavior would play a huge role in discrediting his integrity.
Anyone who reads Khorramshahgol's posts will see the only person
involved in a "smear campaign" is him. This much is absolutely
certain.
Whatever tactics
lawyers may use, the fact remains: I was sexually abused by
Sai Baba. What matters is my own truth to myself. Glance at the
literature of sexual abuse. In some cases, the sexually abused are
afraid to go to court, simply because they do not wish to be twice
victimized, this time by antagonistic lawyers. No chance that
‘fair-is-fair’ – unless, of course, we survivors go out of our way to
ensure that we are exceptionally well represented by legal counsel.
…my comments are limited to ExBaba.com. I have heard
many accusations against the Sai Organization, yet these accusations
seem to be nothing more than vitriolic attacks.
Mr. Morèno
forgets fast that he admitted that Sai Baba has had sex with young
“men”. So, not all of our accusations are baseless, are
they?
And since Mr.
Morèno openly supports and defends, as an Indian guru, a convicted
murderer and a rapist who is serving two life sentences in India, is
hard for the rest of us to pay any attention to him when he says "these
accusations seem to be nothing more than vitriolic attacks". My reading
some time ago is that expert forensic
testimony was received by the Indian court from a renowned British
pathologist and it was very damning of Premananda.
Why have Mr.
Morèno and so many Sai devotees refused to hold Sai Baba and his
organization to the civil, moral and ethical accountability that are
expected of the rest of us? Have they never stopped to consider the
terrible battle sexual abuse survivors have to get their accounts
listened to?
Why hasn’t Said
Khorramshahgol refused to hold ExBaba.com, Robert Priddy, Randi Godager
and the SaiPetition.net webmasters to the, "civil, moral and ethical
accountability that are expected of the rest of us"?
This “you too”
retort is most dishonest, and evades one of the foremost questions to be
asked of Mr. Morèno: why does he show little or no concern for holding
Sai Baba and his officials to the civil, moral and ethical
accountability that are expected of the rest of us?
In any case, I am
not out there writing articles about web sites. Nor do I represent
Exbaba. It is a general website which accepts the expressions of a range
of former devotees, not all of whom agree about ways and means by which
to expose. Again, let Mr. Morèno stick to the point.
This is perhaps
the reason why the Sai Organization has refused to talk to any of the
anti-SSB activists. I believe my web pages about the online petition proves this beyond
any doubt.
As many media,
institutions and even more thoughtful Sai devotees well know, the Sai
Organization is a monolith. Famously, like many an authoritarian cult,
it does not respond to queries or criticisms. Many former devotees have
tried to broach their concerns with the Sathya Sai Organization all the
way to the top. E.g., Mrs. Gypsie Chapotin, Mrs. Ella Evers, Mrs.
Shirley Pike, Mrs Elena Hartgering, the Rahm family, Rick Raines, Glen
Meloy, Dr. Timothy Conway, Serguei Badaev, Stephen Carthew, Hans de
Kraker, Barry Pittard, Robert Priddy, ….. In some cases, the
approach was made while still members of the Sai Organization, which
they had wished would show compassion, duty of care and courageous
truthfulness.
Mr. Morèno fails
to be fair and honest, even in the act of accusing others of being
unfair and dishonest… He flees the question. He avoids the moral and
ethical duty that former devotees have accepted: that is, to
expect accountability from Sai Baba and his
Organization.
I simply provided
links, with comments, for others to research so they can form at their
own independent conclusions.
The links are
proof for the points I made about Said's spamming and comments, unless,
of course, Said is denying he made the comments and "la_quake" isn't his
online name either.
Mr. Morèno did
not mention anywhere in his article that what he wrote is his opinion,
which is dishonest.
He also did not
provide any links in his last response to prove or disprove
anything. A link to my account of how I felt guilty proves
nothing.
He provides a
link to an MSN group called SaiBabaMaestroeAvatar where I supposedly
spammed over 1,200 times, but when you go to that group, you will not
find any posts from me, let alone 1,200 of them. No ‘proof’
there!
He provides a
link to a Yahoo group saying that I have posted a lot of messages there.
Again, this link proves nothing.
His last link was to some posts
that were supposed to be from me. Except that the person posting
under my name was not me. In his response, Mr. Morèno now agrees
that the person is not me. So again, this last link is not proof
either.
These things show that Said had "many problems"
prior to coming to SSB. This is just a statement of fact, backed
up by Afshin Khorramshahgol’s own words.
When I read my
account that he refers to (which he conveniently posts), nowhere did I
find the words “many problems” that he says I uttered.
Mr. Morèno forgets that truth shall
always prevail. He had the same feelings as I did before I met Sai
Baba. And yet acts as if he has no idea what I was feeling.
Dear reader, would you imagine it? - a
little research discloses that Mr. Morèno’s experience below is very
similar to my own, before and after I became a devotee of Sai
Baba.
“During my teen
years, I was searching very intensely for God. Everything seemed "empty"
to me and I felt that the only way I would every experience being whole
or complete, was if I could find God or Truth.”
“I cried all
night. I felt like I made a huge mistake in coming to India. Everyone
was right, I wasted all of my money and time coming to India and it was
just a total failure. I could not take it anymore. I decided that the
next day, I would get my return flight back to my country. I was
terribly distraught and disappointed. I cried and cried and finally got
a couple hours of sleep around 4a.m.”
“Baba said, "Go."
I was completely overwhelmed. I could not stop crying. For the first
time in my life, I felt like my prayers had been heard. I am sure
everyone thought I was dying because I could not stop
crying!”
http://www.geocities.com/www0db0www/ExperiencesSai.html
…my comments are
limited to ExBaba.com. I have heard many accusations against the Sai
Organization, yet these accusations seem to be nothing more than
vitriolic attacks.
There are many
serious articles on sites like:
http://http://www.exbaba.com/
http://home.no.net/anir/Sai/enigma
http://bdsteel.tripod.com/More/index.html
These raise many
compelling questions about serious anomalies, historical distortions,
contradictions, time-falsified prophecies by a supposedly all-knowing
Sai Baba, and evidence that suggests massive cover-ups by some of his
closest leaders, and by the Indian authorities. They ask questions that
Mr. Morèno and other Sai Baba-struck propagandists and apologists simply
will not answer, or at least answer truthfully.
No one is helping
me.
What? No
one contributes to the massive amount of research that Mr. Morèno is
able to martial in a matter of hours, day-by-day? This is not to mention
all the technical work that he puts into the construction of his
critical website.
I just found it
very strange that he reacted with such profound mental anguish, to the
point of feeling "crazy" and having "paranoia".
I think Mr.
Morèno does find the feelings of others strange. Hence my remark about
‘heart-absent labyrinths’. I can assure him that the manner of his
critical onslaught has not won the trust of a number of Sai Baba sexual
molestees and their families whose response I know of. Therefore, we
certainly will not share with him details of our deep sense of hurt and
betrayal, nor the steps that are slowly, rather painfully being taken to
properly witness to the abuses, and to obtain some sort of closure for
ourselves. I am not sorry that I have attempted to make public my sense
of betrayal by Sai Baba, but I do pray that as I grow older and wiser I
will find better ways to channel my hurts and anger, and yet still work
hard to expose this great spiritual fraudulence that has stricken the
world.