GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Aug 31 2005)
Subject: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Gabriel Merrún

Dear Gabriel,

I read your testimony on Conny Larsson’s site and had a little bit of trouble understanding it. I hope you speak English, or this email will not make much sense.

How old were you when you had your interview with Sathya Sai Baba?

I didn’t understand the part where you said, “I thought that this pinch was like a thing reminding me of the kind of peg you use when you transfer energy from one car machine to another, when you have an engine failure, to get the machine to start again. Even if the whole thing felt rather strange and surprising, I didn’t suspect then what it was about, or what would be the result.”

Did you feel some sort of electric current when Sathya Sai Baba touched you? How long did Sathya Sai Baba “pinch” you? According to your story, it seemed that you not interpret the “pinch” as being sexual until after you read about other stories. Is this accurate? Before Sathya Sai Baba touched you, did Conny Larsson ever tell you that Sathya Sai Baba touched him (or anyone else) sexually?

Thank you kindly for any clarifications you can kindly provide.

Sincerely,

Joe

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN - EMAIL ONE

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 2 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

I was 19. No i didnt know anything about Saibaba touching people thats why i didnt understand at once, i had heard roumors of people talking about Saibaba stimulating the so called kundalini energi, (i knew the concept of it since i had practised yoga alot), i dont remember how long maybe a few secunds long was the pinch, i didnt know what to think and i didnt start to think about it afterwards, i asked some people about it and they gave the kundalini explenation. So because i had been made to belive in this i couldnt think clearly, and i just thought, well maybe it was a kind of energy transmission, that doesnt mean i felt any energi, and i didnt. I felt nothing more tahn just two pinching fingers, thats it and thats all i promise you. No magic was invalved, i promise that.

Regards G

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN - EMAIL TWO

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 2 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

Hi

No, ididnt feel any electric energy at all, i was just illogicalreasoning, because i was persveded tobelive in the myth i couldnt at first belive that it could be sexual, i was not prepered. That i thought it would be energy was just my own reasoning and how i explained it then.

RESPONSE TO GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Sept 2 2005)
Subject: About Re: Sathya Sai Baba
To: Gabriel Merrún

Thank you for your email response, Gabriel!

I was just wondering, did Conny ever refer to you in his writing on the internet before writing his book? I read all of Conny’s testimonies and he talked about some boys he claimed were sexually abused in 1999, and one of the stories sounded just like yours (but no name was given).

Conny talked about a patient from the Kärnan Institute he took to see Baba. That story sounded almost exactly like yours. Are you that Swedish boy from the Kärnan Institute that went with Conny to India in 1999?

Sometimes, all of this information can be so confusing. Especially when there is a language difference.

Also, you mentioned that Conny related your story under a “pseudonym description”. Is ,“Gabriel Murrun” your real name, or a pseudonym? I can understand if you do not want to give your real name, but I was just curious.

Thank you kindly for your explanations.

Much peace.

Sincerely,

Joe

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 3 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

Hi

Now i am not the boy from karnan institue, i dont know if the stories are simmilar or not because i havent compared them, i just told my version of what happened. It seems that some people dont want to belive the stories, but that are unfortunatly their own problem, i just felt for sharing mine, i dont think about what happened there so much any longer, except that i feel sorry for those who gave their hole lifes to Baba and those that have taken the same path.

, Gabriel

RESPONSE TO GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Sept 3 2005)
Subject: About Re: Sathya Sai Baba
To: Gabriel Merrún

Gabriel, actually, I have no reason to doubt your story. But as you know, people want to know more information than what was provided in your testimony. Some people actually care for the truth and clarifying the matter, so they can get a better idea about the claim being made.

You didn”t mention anything about your name. Is your name “Gabriel Merrun” an anonymous name?

These are valid concerns, that need to be addressed. I hope you do not take offence.

Thanks.

Sincerely,

Joe

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 5 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

Hi

Heheh

And if Gabriel is my real name or not, i think is irrellevant, its just my story, people who dont belive it dont need to belive it, its not my worry, i just told it because i felt for it. People who really wants to find out, just need to visit Sai (If they are young and a boy) and find out the truth about it. Its easy and there are many more testimonies i suppose for the currious one.

So the truth is out there and it would be easy for a jounalist to uncover the truth, just need to go to the ashram and pretend to be a devote, and sai will make his move.

Once again, if its a real name or a ficion barrowed name im using is not rellevant, at least not for me;) and the way i see it.

Cheers!

RESPONSE TO GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Sept 5 2005)
Subject: About Re: Sathya Sai Baba
To: Gabriel Merrún

Gabriel, yes it is relevant. A testimony from someone who gives their real name is far more credible than a testimony given under a fake name. It is easy for people to lie and exaggerate using fake names because they cannot be held directly accountable for their allegations. A person who uses their real name does so because they have nothing to hide.

So once again, is “Gabriel Merrun” a real name or a fake name?

Thanks,

Joe Moreno

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 7 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

Yes, i understand what you mean. Well for me it’s not important, what people want’s to belive is their buisness, and if people read my testimony and doubt it, well then they just have to go and look for them selfs or compare to other stories.

For my part, i am not trying to convince anybody about anything, not at all, if people wants to belive in sai or in a beardy man or what ever, its their choice, i cant do anything about that. All i wanted to do is just to share my story with others, who like me is of a thinking nature. If you just think about the situation around baba and investigate it, its so obvious to know. No body needs to convince anybody, and even if people wants me to fight baba or any other religion i wont, i just tell my story, some listen and concider it, dosent mean that the investigation stops there for the, but they will put some questionmarks around baba, and soner or latter if they fallow him thay will se the signs of it for them self.

So i wont answer if it is my name or not, because i am not trying to convice people just saying my story, and if thats not enough people my look for others.

Peace brother!

RESPONSE TO GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Sept 7 2005)
Subject: About Re: Sathya Sai Baba
To: Gabriel Merrún

Gabriel,

I had no reason to doubt your testimony, but now I do. You make all sorts of accusations against Sathya Sai Baba, but won’t even say if you are using a real or fake name. If you will not even answer such a simple and basic question, what do you have to hide?

You said Conny gave you a pseudonym. Why is it so difficult to say “yes” or “no” to a simple question: Is “Gabriel Merrun” your real name?

Contrary to your assertion that you are not trying to convince anyone of your testimony, it would not be published if you weren’t trying to convince someone that something is questionable about Sathya Sai Baba.

It’s a simple and valid question. That you refuse to answer it is suspicious.

Sincerely,

Joe

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN - EMAIL ONE

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 8 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

heheh wery funny. No i am not trying to convince anybody, i just wrote the paper, mostly for my one sake, to clear up what happened, to write sometimes has a kind of therapeutic effect.

To be completly honest, i won’t answer your qustion about my name for two reasons. First, i see not the relevance of it, because the truth is out there for anybody curious enough to find out, i am not the only one, not at all to have vitnessed this, there are many others, so its pretty obviuos rather than not. Its easy to find out the truth not difficult, and its not my responsobillity to fight baba, because its not my guilt, its baba who should clearyfy him self, but he cant because he is a slave to his own image making.

My second reason for not answering your question, apart for not finding it relevant, is the many death threats aimed at people talking about this, and i also heared that to frensh boys got killed, and the indian polis arrested a person saying he was sent by the ashram, there was not enough evidence to do something or mabe just a lack of power. I am not sure, but if you want to find out i think there might be some reports about this at interpolice.

But you have to understand that i am young, i have a life in front of me, i have left this behind and moved on, i love life, and i dont want to risk my life or any of my family mambers life by displaying my name. If people wants to belive in him, or kill for him they may, but if i can avoid threats i will, so i wont answer that question for my own personal safety, i dont even know who you are or why you insist on trecking or finding out my name. Wats you intention of it, forgett my name man! Its my name and i am going to keep it for my self, i have a life to live and i love my life and is not taking any risk for that ashole saibaba, if people wants to believe in him its their buisness, i just told my story, examine it and continue you questioning (i wish you the best, because its a shared responsobility) and see what you find out for your self. My personal freedom i will keep, thank you.

And if you find that answer suicpicious i find your investigation of my name also suicpicious, could make me paranoid, but i am cool, because i am keeping my name secret, by putting my story on the net some people told me in forehand about the threats i will have to deal with, so i am prepered.

peace

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN - EMAIL TWO

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 8 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

As i explained my resons of not using my name, i just want to say, that my answer is honest, if i would just have said yes or no to your answer i could be laying, because you would be satisfied with a quick answer, well because i didnt tell you, doesnt that tell you something...Good luck anyway....what ever

RESPONSE TO GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Sept 9 2005)
Subject: About Re: Sathya Sai Baba
To: Gabriel Merrún

Gabriel, I fail to see your logic.

“Gabriel”, I had no reason to doubt your testimony because I felt you were being honest. Why would I think you were lying about you name if you told me that your name was “Gabriel Merrun”? I made a simple enquiry because you said that Conny related your story using a “funny pseudonym description”. I simply wanted to know if you were using a real name or not.

Because you refuse to tell me whether or not you are using your real name (it is obvious you are not), that tells me you have something to hide. If your first response to me was that you were using a pseudnym because you feared for your safety, etc., then I think that would have been an acceptable answer. However, it is clear you are not forthcoming. Consequently, I can only conclude that if you spend this much time refusing to answer one question, I have more doubts about you and your testimony than I originally did.

Sincerely,

Joe

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 9 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

Well, it’s okej. You might believe what you wan’t about me, thats your choice. But if you are interested in “sai”, and wan’ts to get nearer to the god, one advice from me is to consider my story and others.

I don’t feel i have wasted anytime by talking to you, more so i have been bored because i am located in a very touristic place in Asia (sdon’t like the commerce, it bores me), so it have been fun to chat with people who read my story. So spending time to answer questions.. well that was what i expected when i first wrote the paper.

I am not believing that i am going to safe the world from baba or anything, i have moved on, i wrote the paper for mine and others sake, if people belive it well that they are free to do as they like, people are free to inquire baba, i am not the case, baba is.

I don’t want to say if im using my name or not, because i want to protect my privacy, i am not offering anything more in the name of Baba, no more troubles for him. People can think for them selves, if i would have read about stories like this i would have known better and been more sceptical, and to be sceprical would have been enough, because once you are WITH Baba, you will se the tricks and things he do, they are there, especially if you are young and a boy. So its easy to inquire, my paper is just another paper, but if people wants to find out they need to go to the core of the matter. Its not my buisness, i did what i feelt was my obligation, and that was to tell people about my story, my name is private, and i will keep protecting my name, and i dont care what people say about that, its my integrity and i will fight for it.

Sincerly

RESPONSE TO GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Sept 9 2005)
Subject: About Re: Sathya Sai Baba
To: Gabriel Merrún

The problem is that there are many people who have slandered Sathya Sai Baba under the guise of anonymity. Since you are not using your real name, and are withholding this information from the general public, people will doubt your integrity because there is no way to distinguish between you and an imposter. Anyone can say anything they choose using a fake name. They cannot be held accountable for their accusations. It takes a completely different type of person to make an accusation and back it up with a real name.

I am sure you have heard many rumors about “murders” and “attacks” against Ex Devotees, but none of them are substantiated in any way. I have not heard anyone trying to harm Conny Larsson, Robert Priddy, Hans De Kraker, Alaya Rahm, Jens Sethi, Jed Geyerhahn or Barry Pittard. These are typical “fear tactics” employed by Anti-Sai Activists that are used to justify making allegations under the guise of anonymity. If a Pro-Sai Activist made these type of allegations under a pseudonym, and people found out about it, they would doubt their claims. You are no different and cannot be expected to be held to a different standard than what is expected of others. Period.

Sincerely,

Joe

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 10 2005)
Subject: Re: About Sathya Sai Baba
To: Joe

Well, i understand, if you really want to deal and clear up with baba the best is sure to enter media, expose your name etc. So i cant be that person because i dont want to expose my name, to stay anynomuos is enough for me. If people just are aware of the risk, in entering saibaba, they maight be more opened eyed, i wasnt, if i had just heard about any accusation before i went to baba ashram i would have realised the things earlier. Its enough i promise you, just go there, be openmindeed if yopu like and soon baba will touch you to, then maybe you will look differently on our stories, and maybe you will use your name, or maybe you wont, because i had enough.

Good luck, i understand your interest, but i am not in the front, i keep my name for my own future thank you, i just wrote this paper and i am not even planing to write a book.

Senserly

RESPONSE TO GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Sept 22 2005)
Subject: Let me know if this is accurate:
To: Gabriel Merrún

http://www.saisathyasai.com/baba/Ex-Baba.com/Witnesses/gabriel-merrun.html

Sincerely,

Joe

RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Gabriel Merrún (Sept 23 2005)
Subject: Re: Let me know if this is accurate:<
To: Joe

I told you that i want to be anonymious! People like you really makes me angry. I dont want to be a part of your silly discussion, concerning “my” or “not my” name. If you want to find out the truth, travell to baba and find out for your self. I have told you my resaons, honestly and i have given my time to answer my questions, but you simply dont care. I am really tired of all this, i have left it all behind, and what i experienced was in some way also emabbresing, to be fooled by that hairy “baba”. So please let me be and respect my integrity! Let me go! I didnt ask you to read my paper, i just wrote it and people are free to interpret it as they like. I have moved on.. so show some respect and stop discussing me, you have no right to steel my intergity, you are seriously annoying me.

DECEMBER 2005 - RESPONSE FROM GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Gabriel Merrún (Dec 6 2005)
Subject: mail from Gabriel, a request..
To: Joe

Hi, remember me? ; “Gabriel Merrun”

I would like to ask of you a favour and in return will i tell you the truth. The truth is that i wrote the article of my experience but, since it was not me who put the article on the web, my name was accidently put, added to my article. But I wanted to be anonymous and I still do, if i had knew the result of all this, then probably i wouldnt have writen the article, thats how important my private integrity is.

Then when i got your mails, i wanted to answer questions, but you insisted on my name. And i really didnt want to answer your question of my name, but you didnt seem to care and insisted. And now, is my name circeling on the web. I really dont want that. I am glad that you wrote, even if its not true, that my name was a fake name. But I am sorry to say that its my real name, and I am even more sorrythat i am no being related to “Sai baba and sexual abuse” through your article, on the web. Dont you understand that this is a VERY private matter? That this is not a happy memory, and can you rspect that i want to be private?

Now can ANYBODY, my future employeer, my neighbours, etc ANYBODY just surf on the web and read articles of my private history, of how i smoked weed, went to india and so on, really private things.

Maybe i laid to you, since you insisted on my name, the only thing i didnt wanne share, maybe i sayed its a fake name. But it is not. It was a misstake that my name was added toghether with my article in the first place, and i have asked Conny to remove it, and he said he did.

So i beg you, can you please ask the web adiministrator to remove my name from your article, or who ever runs that sight, its my real name and i want to keep it for my self and the people that i love.

To find out that Gabriel Merrun is my real name is easy. You just look it up in the telephone book or register of swedish citizens (its on the web, i can explain where) and from there can you easily find my mobil number and call me so i can confirm that it is me. But since i want to keep my integrity have i only allowed my mobil number to be registred, (not my adress and so on) obviously becouse i dont want people, strangers, or so just to knock on my door without first asking.

Right now am i travelling in south east asia, until february, so you have to wait if you want to call me (i dont travel witm my mobil).

But please, can you do that for me? Now a days when you read the article i wrote, my name is already removed, and it was a misstake that it was put on the web at first place. Its not nice that the first thing peole can find out about me is this, when they google the web, maybe some old friend that lost my number, an employeer, a date and so on, anybody. Since i have left this history behind dont i wanna be associated with it ether. So i beg you, honsetly, remove my name.

Gabriel Merrun

RESPONSE TO GABRIEL JOSEF MERRUN

From: Joe (Dec 6 2005)
Subject: Re: mail from Gabriel, a request..
To: Gabriel Merrún

Gabriel, of course I remember you. I would love to accomodate your request, but as long as you have a public testimony against Sathya Sai Baba published on the internet, I am not going to help you falsify your name. You have to give thanks to Anti-Sai Sites and Conny Larsson for putting your real name on the internet.

Once they take down your testimony, I will change you name accordingly. Until then, I am leaving the page up. Let me know what you decide.

Sincerely,

Joe

P.S. Enjoy your travels in Vietnam.

GABRIEL JOSEF MERRÚN - IN CONCLUSION

In Conclusion, Gabriel Josef Merrún claimed that he was “pinched” on his penis by Sai Baba “for a few seconds” when the guru had his back turned towards him. Gabriel initially saw nothing sexual in what Sai Baba allegedly did to him but originally interpreted the experience as a transfer of energy. This sums up Gabriel’s entire story against Sai Baba. Gabriel was 19 years old and an adult at the time of the alleged incident.

After my email correspondence with Gabriel Merrun, his name was changed to “Gabriel M.” on Conny Larsson’s Anti-Sai website. Conny Larsson failed to provide any accounts from “children” or “boys” despite his repeated accusations that Sai Baba is a “pedophile” and that “My God, My Guru, raped children”. Bold-faced lies.

• Gabriel Merrun / Merrún From Sweden - Information And Facts